Postpartum Battle & Mood Juice: Taking Back my Mental Health
Calling all mamas experiencing anxiety, depression, and irritability:
Recently, I shared on my Instagram story (found in the highlight section) the effects Mood Juice by Organic Olivia have had on me, and felt as though it deserved a home on my blog. If you’re following me on Instagram, you know that I’ve shared my battle with postpartum depression, and how more recently, it reared its hideous head into the frontline of my life. As a result, patience has worn thin with my son, partner, those around me, and my own energy to do anything outside of “just enough” in every sense of the term.
After feeling like I hit another dead end to bettering my mental state, I had the most amazing conversation with a fellow mommy blogger, Diaries of a Millenial Mom.
Now let’s have a quick moment of honesty, mamas: I didn’t realize it for a long time, but I was resting comfortably in the seat of depression and using that for every single thing I slacked on.
Dinner not cooked? “I’m going through something.”
I snapped at a coworker? “Well, they should have been able to tell I wasn’t in a good mood.”
No sex tonight... again? “Well, what do you want from me? I’m not feeling like myself anymore.”
I’m not saying my postpartum depression isn’t real — it’s one of the most heart-wrenching realities I’ve faced in my 25 years of life. But I unpacked and lived there. It’s almost as if I didn’t want to get better. I felt so tired that I just didn’t want to be someone anyone needed, outside of Jayden.
But that’s no way to live now, is it?
After speaking to Fatima, she suggested I give Mood Juice a try. I’ve been following Organic Olivia for some time now: I’ve read the reviews, I’ve watched the videos, and I believed it worked as well as everyone said it did. “But for me? How could it work for me? I have postpartum depression. That won’t just go away with some herbs.”
Mood Juice is a herbal tincture that supports a balanced mood and calms the nervous system with traditional, organic Chinese herbs. Mamas, this stuff is REAL! My mood elevated tenfold. I’m more cheerful and finding myself just laughing off moments that I would typically become stressed over — by those moments, I mean something as ridiculous as my partner chewing too loud. I find that when my partner and I begin bickering over nonsensical issues, it’s easy to laugh off, rather than walk around with an unwavering attitude. It’s aided in keeping my anxiety levels low during my daily, crowded public transportation travels. It’s even allowed me to stay cool, calm & collected through work days that involve six meetings and getting home way later than anticipated.
I didn’t think it was possible, moms. As I mentioned before, there was a part of me okay with staying put in my cranky little bubble and not striving to do better. These days, I wake up every morning excited for the day. I have my Mood Juice first thing in the morning with a cup of hot lemon water, and that’s when it all begins. A conversation with God, a “Good morning, have a nice day” to a stranger on the train, genuine joy to tackle 6 meetings, endless laughter with my boys when I get home... those small moments are things I thought I lost forever. They say every morning we are given the chance to choose joy — implementing this tincture daily is how I choose joy.
I hope this blog inspired you to prioritize your health, and expand the ways you choose to do so. Seeking therapy, moving your body, ingesting products that are good for you and make you feel good... that’s how we take the leap in bettering ourselves. Not every day is a good day — I get cranky, frustrated, and overwhelmed. This isn’t some sort of cure for depression, as Olivia constantly reminds her customers. This is just one ingredient in the pot to becoming well, and something I will keep close forever.
Sending love & positive vibrations,